This blog is just a lie..

Truth is, I still think about you, day and night.

I can't forget you, J.

You appear in my dreams, in the corner of my mind, you're just there.

I know how happy you must be now that you're married..

It may have been a crush, but in all honesty..

It has "crushed" my life. I can't bring myself to do anything, anymore. There's just nothing I can do to change that fact.

Pathetic as it may seem, you have no idea what I'm going through right now. No.. idea.. whatsoever.

Still, I wish you all the best in whatever you do.

The problem with the friendship between us, if there ever really was one, is that I blame myself for everything. It has never been your fault. I may flare up at times just because I have a weird temper..

But it has always been my fault.

For hoping too much

For loving too much

For crying too much

For losing too much.

No matter what happens. all I know is that I'll never stop caring about you, even if it means just staying away and not intruding in your life anymore.

It was a period of a decade, people say it takes twice the amount of time to forget someone.. That's 20 years. I think it'll be forever till the day I die.

Last post in this blog, as I feel I'm cheating even myself too much with this title. New beginning? More likely the beginning of the end.

Yours Faithfully

James See